Update:
The paramilitary is driving the bus in Santa Rosa. Freaken creepy.
I've got people hinged on my every action or lack of action. No pressure though.
My dad chose Tara. Nothing against her but you would think that blood would be thicker than water. Im so tired of being misunderstood by my own blood. Cant deal. Im so tired dad you have no idea, how hard its been to constantly be on the move and traveling. Plus dad, I dont know if I can trust the people that tell myself things that would get myself closer to you. I dont have you to talk to and I cant tell always whos bluffing.
La left. Didn't officially know they were here until they were gone.
Kendall is the person that has been extorting money from myself all along. I didn't know till "Ella" inadvertantly admitted guilt. Now its official. The money portion at least. (The money that has been extorted from myself over the last 15 years. Was I friends with a stranger that was a great actress? I didn't know that she had it in her to be this deceiving. I would have never guessed. Why after all that Ive found out do I still care about her? Im really confused. I have enough ammo on her to not care if she gets plummeled by a bus, but I still care. Dumb, when will I learn.
Apparently I am in Fulsom Prison. (???????????? I have no clue how this is my fate). Isn't there a place that I can go in this life and not be surrounded by a prison mentality? What a freaken waste of a life. I have never wanted to be associated with things that resemble such a rediculous lifestyle choice.
The billionaires are pissed because Obama is pulling for a "Family America" where he is expecting a certain level of give and take and sacrifice amongst the stronger heads of the country, tapping into the one percent that has all the wealth. They are not happy to say the least. They are so used to having a monopoly on the country and now the president is attempting to give the country back to the people.
My dollars that I was saving were stolen last night in my sleep. I have no official money now. Totally sick of thieves. As usual something that had sentimental value taken away and replaced with an "okay....." Beyond old.
The father of the baby left becuase I didn't take the container of prenatal pills with myself or the baby outfit or the baby plate that I had because I didn't want to carry around all this stuff with myself all day. I took a bunch of prenatals with myself in my carry container. Im totally sick of this life. People that dont even care about you judging everything you are in life. The slightest thing off and boom you lose support. I am tired of dealing with unreasonable expectations.
Was told that I wasn;t allowed to have a life basically last night when I checked into the shelter. This has got to end somehow. I dont know what to do.
Oh also was accused of being "wet" around some overweight woman that I share a room with. What the hell would I be "wet" for. I dont think so. you think I am turned on by what exactly? You people make no sense. Also, plastic bags dont do it for myself either (they dont turn myself on) When will you get a life! Your totally desparate for damaging material.
Ive got mental health people following myself around as if I am some sort of mental patient. They are all weird too, they are the ones that belong in the hospital, have you seen what these people look like? Have you seen how overzealous they become over their profession. Not quite stable if you ask myself.
They keep trying to make it look as if I would hurt an American, Bourne in particular. I was a Jason Bourne Dumb ass.
They are trying to insinuate that I am affiliated with a BanK again and I assure you that I am not. My room in the shelter says that it has a specific sponsor involving the name of a bank but I am not taking it to that level as it is just a shelter and not really the bank. Each room is sponsored by a different business and as soon as something opens up then I will move just out of suspiciousness.
The public was lied to again and told that I had an abortion. I assure you that I didn't. I hate these people that keep lying. I would never hurt a sole so I dont know h0w these people keep getting away with this stuff.
The "Long" group wont stop trying to pimp myself. Why cant I get people that I didn't invite into my life to leave myself alone. Its not only their group but all these groups are driving myself crazy.
I STILL dont want to be your lover! I want a normal marriage thank you very much. Why dont you find someone that has no self esteem. I pretty much only care about the babys father right now as he is half of this child. Other than that I really dont care about a man right now other than common decency extended to any stranger about their well being.
If my uncle Ed doesn't stop his spineless tactics for getting into groups and organizations I will just about puke here pretty soon. He is worthless. I have never hated someone so much in my entire life. I have no respect for someone that lies to his own children and the rest of the world to get his way. If you think that for one moment that I am "wet" or "doing" my uncle you better be prepared to fight as that is the worst insult you could possibly have. The man repulses myself as I have never in my life seen a more undeserving person being propelled forward into the spotlight. Makes myself ill.
No offense to the babys father but I am really tired of someone always trying to be "my God" If I had transportation of my own, I wouldn't need a God. This is how they keep myself enslaved. I would be close to what you are. I wouldn't be stuck with a group of people that I have nothing in common with. These people that say "okay" all the time are not my people. My people left. I care about you and what you think but I am not a force that can be reckoned with. You are younger than I and have no idea the knowledge that I save in my head. I am not a dummy, Im just tired and if there is someone that is qualified to raise this child it is I.
Not having an abortion either. You are on crack! Go kill your kid, hows that? Im not a killer and Im not killing the child I have waited my entire life for. No, the baby is not of the "uh huh" group nor does it belong to the "Im such a spineless weasel named ED" group either. You can all be assured that that wont happen. This child is a wonderful entity and I wont have you polluting its existance with groups of people that I would rather die than to participate in.
Was also told last night that I wasn't allowed to stay here as the locals say that I owe money. What a crock. H0w much money have you been extorting from my life again? Not to mention maybe you should be barking up Kendalls tree for payment considering I worked and only made 20% of my own income. Someone got paid but it wasn't myself. Not mad at you for being misinformed but thought I would put it in perspective.
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